Oh how happy I am today! A new year, and away with the last one! It wasn't exactly how I planned it to go, but thank God that things don't really ever go the way I plan them. I went through the things I did because I kind of brought them on myself in a way. I didn't seek God's counsel before making a pretty important decision. I didn't listen to those around me telling me certain things. But now I have learned, I have experiences that God will use to glorify His kingdom. I have also learned so much within the last 5 days that I do not know how to begin to use all of which was driven in to my mind.
Usually what people do is to recap things which have happened through out the year, good, bad, joyous, saddening, whichever. It has taken me a very long time to finally get to the point where I am no longer upset and extremely angry with things that have happened at the beginning of 2007, which turned into a world of hurt in the fall. I spent most of the summer trying to run away and avoid the problems and what God was really trying to tell me to do. Don't get me wrong, I loved working at Falls Creek, but over the time at Falls Creek I was away for such a long time that I just shoved feelings back, feelings that probably should've been dealt with a long time ago. Alot of bitterness, more towards myself, and hurt, and just being mad at myself for various reasons when I knew very well that God had forgiven me for those sins. This recently has made me think how selfish and horrible that was. I thought that my forgiveness was more needed than God's, (BIG WRONG). I really want to thank those people who have helped me through a couple of very very tough years. I have been discipled by terrific women of God, Tracy and Julie have been big mentors in my life. Bobby and Julie Cates have done more than I could ever express, and I know God is going to do tremendous things with their ministry. My family has been more than understanding, I am blessed beyond measure! I am finally realizing that if God chooses for me to never get married, or to meet someone and be married within the next two years it makes no difference. Because the only relationship I should be seeking and trying to make grow is the one I have through Jesus Christ. Its amazing what surrounding yourself with the right people can do. I also am becoming to terms with the fact that I am never going to be what is considered "successful" according to the world's standards. In the first chapter of 1 Corinthians Paul addresses that even the greatest of wisdom and strength in the world is considered all for nothing. And that God had chosen those of low estate to do His greatest of works. Alot of changes have happened over the past year, I have grown in many different ways, especially spiritually and emotionally. And those people who God has placed in my life have been there through it all, God is accredited to every single thing that has ever taken place in my life that will one day benefit His kingdom! 2007 will definitely be a year to remember, but for the reasons of using it to glorify my Lord and Savior.
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